5.10.2009

all ye, beware. big time emo in the house.

As days roll by, it has become saddening to think that you can’t really hold onto things, to people; those who cradled you and held you as a child, your role models for the true, the good and the beautiful; those that played both major and minor parts in defining your happiness, shaping your memories as an individual—all of them slowly receding to oblivion; preoccupied with their own individual sorrows.

Standing there, i thought, i was happy here, once. I was carefree and laughed in a way that real laughter should sound. I was a child here, once. Filled with joy and surrounded with love.

Now things are in shambles, rickety, and beyond repair. I don’t know what else to think. I don’t know what else to feel. This intensity is now making it apparent that i haven’t downed enough gsm blue this afternoon for me to feel the requisite numbness enough to compel me to lose touch with reality. Happy birthday to me.

11 comments:

:: cb :: said...

happy birthday, gentle. i hope u feel better soon. tagay mo ko!

Dylan Dimaubusan said...

Ang emo naman ng birthday celebrant.. haha!

God bless you gentle!
Cheers!

lucas said...

that's so sad :/ i really hope you would still be able to celebrate your birthday with someone...

you're supposed to be happy you know...and most of the time, happiness is a choice.

Herbs D. said...

:) labas tayo nung isa kong papa hehe. paworld chicken ka naman! WC!WC! dont be emo. ayaw mo nun?

you're a year older na :)
i find aging = wisdom

jamie da vinci! said...

ei? what's this all about? belated happy birthday and mom's day yogi! :)

wanderingcommuter said...

aaawww... emo nga... nonetheless, hampey bewtdey.


sa susunod kasi mag invite ka ng inuman, owtei?

Anonymous said...

Big time emo? Di naman masyado.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ULET! =)

-- Mr. Scheez

gentle said...

salamat sa lahat ng bumati, at sa mga hahabol pa. :) wat ken i say? i'm tats! not so much the emo i was yesterday... but an emo nonetheless.

Niel Camhalla said...

one best way to be not emo during birthdays, i realized, is to forget about counting birthdays.

the geek said...

happy birthday, genteel gentle...

happy mother's day din sa mom mo...

shibumi said...

oj,

narito pa rin naman si ate... thats me....
just in case di mo narinig early morning greeting ko nung bday mo...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BROTHER!!!

... your family would always look at you like that... our baby... kahit pa we are sometimes preoccupied with our own problems...

...narito lang kami lagi para sa iyo...

... i'm really praying for you to find real happiness, peace and joy...

...o naku! dami nga pala audience dito... baka sabihin nila...emo rin sis mo.

...ah basta... luv you always :)